I’m still alive! In fact, not only am I’m alive BUT I’m finally feeling better. Cue the choir (Halleleujah!). I mean, I’m still pregnant which means that I’m hobbling around exhausted most of the time, but I’m functioning and not teetering on the brink of survival. I count that as a victory.
I’ve re-entered society again and am starting to see friends, run errands, and even cook a few times in the last week. Also, my two year-old rediscovered the Bumbo.
Blog
As far as the blog goes, I’ve decided (as you can tell) to drop this on the priority scale in my life right now. It’s actually been really good for me. My focus is surviving the process of growing another human, being a good mother to Landon and partner for Rod, and focusing on school. I don’t think I have any extra energy for anything else right now. It’s been a good lesson for me in letting things go. The blog is usually such a great source of purpose and an outlet for me but it’s turned into a rather large stress (or source of guilt) and that isn’t what I need right now, so I’ve decided to let the guilt go for not “accomplishing” this portion of my former “goals” and it’s made me much happier.
I hope to pop on here from time to time with family, pregnancy, and school updates but I have no set “health blogging” agenda in the near future. I hope to pick things up again in the next few months and will still be responding to emails and comment inquiries (please be patient if I don’t get back *right* away, I promise I will respond), as I do love the communication forum of blogs.
School
The last two weeks have been great, now that I have been well enough to really enjoy it. I have LOVED this program. I feel like I’m doing what I am meant to be doing in life…if that makes sense. More so than I ever felt with even my passion for dance or acting. I love the work and the potential that it has to really help people, so I am very excited for the future. In fact, studying all the dietary theories (the school covers 100 different theories) has been very freeing for me. I think I’ve become so much more open-minded about nutrition health than I was before and I absolutely love the holistic approach of the program (it’s more than just about the food we are eating).
Pregnancy
I’ve decided to include a little chronicling of the bump. I love other blogs that do this, and I have literally 2 pics of me being pregnant with Landon, so I’m doing my best to take a picture regardless of how weird my body feels to me.
14 Weeks
“Hot dog” body is on the way out and the baby bump is on the way in…It’s a pretty impressive bump for being at the stage in pregnancy where most women aren’t showing yet. This was very exciting to me during my first pregnancy, (couldn’t wait to get the bump) but now that I’ve been through this rodeo once before (and the 50lbs I packed on with PML), I know what a brood mare I am at the end so I’m just trying to have a good attitude about what is to come.
I also busted out the sexy maternity wear at 13 weeks. I remember trying to fit into my “regular” clothes for as long as possible the first time around. This time I couldn’t wait to get that stretchy fabric around my midsection. Ugly, but comfortable. At least it goes nicely with the sheet of acne on my face and the upper lip that has ceased to be waxed for a few months. I wish I was kidding.
We visited my mom in Denver this week, I was still sick and enjoyed laying around someone else’s house for a change. Thanks mom. 
Landon was obsessed with the vintage “United” hat from the 80s that I used to wear (my mom used to work for the airlines). Every time a gust of freezing wind would come blasting by us he would yell, “Oh mom! Chilly! I need my hat!” which was pretty much every time we went outside. Can I tell you how much I love 2?!
A few recent phrases: The other day he was going number 2 in his diaper and he yelled to me, “Hey Mom! This one is going to be a big one.” Literally. He said that. (It’s time for potty-training.) Then, we were driving in the car somewhere and he yelled, “Mom! Mom! I love my family.” When we were leaving Target he requested that we eat lunch at “Mi Potlays” (a.k.a. Chipotle’s) and then today we went to go see Rod at work for a minute and as we were walking in the building he said, “I’m so happy mama! I get to see my daddy at work!” This age has it’s challenges but I swear I love that PML more now than ever.
16 Weeks
Yes! Showers and make-up are happening again. I really turned a corner this week. Kind of a badly back-lit phone pic, but you can see that I have a belly that pops far beyond what would be normal for 16 weeks…but at least I had a maternity dress that made me feel cute. (It’s the little things…)
Since I haven’t been cooking the last three months, Landon has become quite the exceptional lunch date.
We’re still working on table manners, but he totally understands the concept of “waiting our turn” until the food comes.
17weeks
Apparently clothes make a pretty big difference because I don’t think I look quite as pregnant here. But I’m getting really excited about finding out the gender in 3 weeks (almost half way there!)
I also had my first round of green juice this week which made me feel a little bit more like the old Hilary. My friend Lela got me hooked on this last fall and so we got a juicer for Christmas. This is a really basic, sweet green juice made from 2 green apples, 3 stalks of celery, a cup of spinach, and a one inch knob of ginger.
On with the stats.
- Total weight gained: 8 lbs. I’m eating so much healthier than I was in the first trimester (and so much less than my first pregnancy) so I’m actually really pleased with the weight gain. I was up about 20 lbs by now, last pregnancy.
- Workouts: Heh…Well, let’s just say that now that I’ve had 11 solid weeks of laying flat on my back for the better part of the day, even pre-natal yoga wipes me out. I’m hoping that since the nausea is starting to get better I can add some walking and more pre-natal yoga to the routine. I think my wish of being one of those cute, fit, zumba-ing pregnant moms is probably not going to be coming true.
- Medicine: Still taking at least one Zophran a day. I think this is why I’m feeling better than I did with Landon at this point (I didn’t take any medicine with Landon). I still feel pretty nauseous at night and when I don’t take the drug I always throw up, but I am definitely starting to turn a corner. Thank the pregnancy gods.
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Cravings: Oranges, Top Ramen, miso soup, berries, and meat. I have found that on the days where I don’t eat meat I almost always feel super nauseous. You better believe that I’m have a little with nearly every meal. Totally opposite to my nearly vegetarian pre-pregnancy diet. Weird.
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Aversions: Food prep in general is hit and miss. Although I am starting to cook more lately.
- Weird Pregnancy Symptoms: Worst acne ever! Occasional pregnancy insomnia. This never happened with Landon, but this has been going on for weeks with this pregnancy. So weird.
- Emotions: I’m definitely less emotional than I was a few weeks ago. Also, I’m so in love with my little family. I mean, I always love them, but I feel like lately I’m constantly thinking about how lucky I am and how much I love them. Hormones or gratitude?
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New Habit: Still following politics, only I’m finding it more and more annoying. Also, I’m obsessed with “House Hunters International” on HGTV. Obsessed! Rod calls it clean “mom porn.” I say it helps me to successfully fulfill my wanderlust (since we won’t be going anywhere very far away for at least a year or two).
- Gender guessing: Only 3 weeks away til our 20 week sonogram! We definitely aren’t waiting to find out. I have zero patience. I’ve been thinking it’s a girl since before I became pregnant. I guess I have a 50/50 chance. If it’s a little boy, that would be great too, but I’d love to have one of each. This pregnancy is going by SO much faster than my first.
Goal for Next Week: Stay positive. It’s all about simplifying for me right now. And maybe actually do some kind of exercise.
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